Smaller Than I Remember

After last weeks rather explosive start to the series, I sat here and wondered how I could possibly top it this time. Then I realised, this isn’t about me trying to outdo myself or prove myself to anyone. It’s purely an opportunity for me to remind future me of what these moments, the ordinary ones, were like.

I want to remember how pleased he looks with himself on this walk. How we set off in the rapidly decreasing light for a walk with the dog, having forgotten his drink and snacks only to be met with shouts of ‘Drink!!’ less than 10m in. How we placated him with yet another stick that he waved from his chariot like he was willing me to go faster.

You're Smaller Than I Remember

His independent streak means he constantly wants to get out and walk; instantaneously halting our progress to near invisible as we walk backwards and forwards over the same patch of grass, pull faces over the mud and stomp into puddles that threaten to flood his wellies. His day was made when we turned the corner to see horses in the field. We scratched their noses, discussed how ‘yes, it is muddy’ and stared at them in awe for a moment. They must seem like giants to him.

It’s these moments that remind me of how tiny he is. That nineteen, sometimes long, months don’t make him as old as he seems; when he perches on his ‘special seat’ (the footrest of the pushchair) and his feet hang over the edge not nearly touching the floor. How it takes him running a gentle jog to keep up with our slow pace. How the dog can lick his ears without having to reach up. He is so much bigger than he was and yet still so tiny. I forget that too easily.

Linked up with The Ordinary Moments.


  • Nicola 14th January 2018 at 1:10 pm

    I get exactly what you mean! Mine can put the twirlywoos on from the sky planner and laugh along . Then when he goes to bed and sits there sucking on his dummy I’m transported back to him being exactly the same as he was at six months old.

    • DevonMamaOnline 15th January 2018 at 9:32 pm

      It’s amazing isn’t it? They can work technology like pros, seem like the big boss of the household and then seem so so soooo tiny. I miss those teeny boys of ours, but they’re growing up to be awesome!

  • Katy - Hot Pink Wellingtons 15th January 2018 at 1:04 pm

    That’s a beautiful photo of him, he looks like he’s trying to figure something out. It’s funny how our children can seem so small to us in an instant, just when you were starting to think they were all grown up!

    • DevonMamaOnline 15th January 2018 at 9:28 pm

      I think it was the ‘what on earth are these huge creatures doing on my walk?!’ look!

  • Donna 16th January 2018 at 1:08 pm

    Sh he is so gorgeous and sounds so independent and string willed – but utterly gorgeous too! x

    • DevonMamaOnline 19th January 2018 at 12:18 pm

      So strong willed!! Which is lovely but oh my goodness!

  • Little Ladies Big World 18th January 2018 at 9:06 am

    It is so lovely to remember these tiny moments and I still look at my eldest at almost 7 and think some day I will think this was still small too. Gorgeous photo #TheOrdinaryMoments

    • DevonMamaOnline 19th January 2018 at 12:14 pm

      I know, they seem so big and yet so small all at the same time! I wonder what point that stops?!

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